Thursday, August 19, 2010

Living In The Stillness

In the stillness of my soul all is well.

The stillness is when I get quiet, clear my mind an listen to God's direction.

Late on a quiet summer evening, I look at the stars and feel the deep serenity of the night sky. I am serene and still within my soul.  The vast universe is constant, yet ever-changing expanding in perfect order-and so am I.

When I take time to see the stars or the ocean I see god's magnificence.  Only a higher power than man can create with the beauty and the perfection of our world.  While I like my world calm and constant it still changes and becomes cloudy and sometimes it is very clear and peaceful.  All I need do to return to peace is to stop, recenter and seek balance again.  I can start my day over anytime.

At times it may feel as if life is changing to fast. So when I need to reconnect with peace and serenity I go within to the stillness that awaits my awareness.  In the quiet of meditation I feel at one with God.  I feel love and a deep sense of purpose.  I allow myself to imagine all that I can be, knowing that all things needed for my success are provided.  From my place of inner stillness, I begin anew, assured that all is well.

Even when it appears everything around me is falling apart I can find peace by inviting God into my now and get quiet and still.  God never leaves me but I forget to include him in my current actions.  God is in the now.

For God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation. Psalm 62:1

Illumined

I am illumined by the guidance of God.

God is my light and my leader. I love shows that show people going  to the light and telling how beautiful it is. I can't wait until I get to experience this in my life in about 50 years.

Sometimes I am tempted to say "I do not know how to do this," or "I do not see the next step."  These thoughts come to mind, but there is a deeper knowing available to me.  I am not restricted to human understanding, which seeks to find logical answers to life's questions. I open to spiritual understanding, to hear the "still small voice" and receive God's guidance, to become one with the Divine Mind.  While I may not see the whole pathway, my next steps become clear.

God never gives me something I can not handle.  He always gives me the tools I need to suit up and show up to do my part.  Sometimes I am clueless or can't see my part. I just wait for guidance and I ask for a clear visual aid.  It always materializes.  There are times when I can't see the big picture but I have learned God wants the very best for me. Usually the answer is way greater than I ever imagined.  Faith and footwork always get me through.

Spiritual direction may come as inspiration, a word, picture or simply an inner since of "rightness."  Experience has shown that as I listen and follow my inner guidance, I begin to hear the voice of God more easily.  I am illumined by Divine guidance and I am grateful.

There is nothing hidden, except to be disclosed; not is anything secret except to come to light. Mark 4:22

Walking With God Gives Me Confidence

I am a powerful confident child of God

Scientist know that we only use 10% of our brain.  The soul is powerful and all knowing when we are in the moment doing Gods' will. Connection with God is where we always need to be.

Taking a moment to measure my level of self-confidence, I ask myself several important questions: How do I carry myself" Do I have good posture? Do I have a positive, self image? Do I communicate clearly to others? A m I able to say "no" when necessary? Am I living authentically?  The answers give me a sense  of my level of confidence.

Unfortunately I do slump in my chair. I am very positive and try to find and compliment the best in people, places and things. I have learned to say "NO" when I need to.  I wish I could say I am living my authentic life but I have not been adding to my spiritual bank account like I usually do.  I am at peace at this time but I am aware of it and making sure I make some deposits.  My confidence level is up but will not stay there if I don't do my part.

I then turn to God in prayer allowing God's presence to illumine my mind and heart.  In the silence, I reconnect with the essence of my being.  New found energy surges withing me and my heart fills with optimism.

I do pray to God everyday and many days I pray multiple times.  I struggle with taking the time to meditate and listen to god. I am filled with Joy and Peace, no matter if it feels like the house if falling down all around me.  God is always there in everything I do. I must remember to invite him in.

Prayer readies me for any challenge or adventure.  I meet the day ahead with ease and grace. My words, actions, and manner convey the power of the Christ at work withing me.

Prayer is when I talk to God, meditation iswhen I listen.  Even though I am not meditating regularly God gets through to me through people, places and things.  Sometimes I have butted my head against the wall that was not necessary if I had of meditated.  The answer come easily and effortlessly.

Do not, therefore, abandon that confidence of yours; it brings a great reward. Hebrews 10:35.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

My Relationship With God

I know longer fear God, I have  unconditional love from God and this never changes. 

We are dual selves in human form. One being the energy self with God and the other which I choose to call ego. Others choose to call it evil, or devil.  I am a human with an ego and a being connected to my higher power.  It is my choice to decide how to live.

When I am living from ego I am not doing God's will. I am cheating myself of God's love and missing all the opportunities he has placed in front of me. God didn't leave me, I left him.  I left the current moment.

Ego is controlled by worldly things.  Things I think will make me happy. (Home, Cars, Money and just a lot of stuff) Ego also fuels my fear of losing people, places and things that I think I need in my life to make me happy.

One example was my car.  When I had my old car I feared it breaking down on me, then I would not have a car to drive to work and lose my job.  Wow, that is a lot of projection.

Then it came to me from God's solution.   You have the money and phone number of a local towing company and my daddy let me borrow a vehicle until I got my new car.  Transportation solved. The car never left me stranded.  All that worry for nothing.  I did get tired of it and let God take it over and the new car was even better than I ever believed it could be. My ego was in fear of losing something and my faith cancelled out those fears and I got still enough to hear God say "Child I am protecting you." I didn't lose what I thought I needed but instead I got a better new car out of it.

I needed a new place to live and one literally walked up to my job and she laid the picture on the receptionist desk. It was an upstairs apartment so I didn't have any downstairs noise and it had big nice rooms. I have now been there 4 years. It was much nicer and private than I expected.

We all need material things in this world to function while in human form, however it is when I think I can't do without a person, place or thing I shut down from God's will.  God will always hold my hand no matter how stressful or fearful it may be.

God is in the solution. God does not punish or test me. Life on humans terms throws things at me.  God holds my hand and walks through it with me.  God is my solution to life on life's terms no matter what it throws.

I always have some footwork to do each time life throws me a curve.  Even if it is to be still and listen for God's direction. I have learned that prayer is when I talk to God and meditation is when I listen to God.  the footwork on the car was to get the number of the wrecker company.  I had the money in case that happened. It eased my mind even though God knew I didn't need it but he sent me a solution because I couldn't be still and find peace in the situation. He was the solution to the problem.

When I was looking for full time work I got a job working Monday-Wednesday and another company that needed me Thursday and Friday.  Poor dad was hoping to be off those days and let me run for him.  He found a solution. He just takes Friday off anyway and let's the shop figure it out.

God handles all my needs and most of my wants to live a comfortable peaceful human life. I am still surprised when I get more than I ever imagined. 

I wanted to be a grandmother and I got triplets.  All healthy and wonderful.  I also get to see them and love on them every week. My daughter and son-in-law actually want me around. What a gift.

Finding a doctor I could afford to find out what my problem is from getting out of breath just walking up the stairs.  I have the money to go back and get my blood work done. I needed direction and God was in the solution. He directed me to the right medical group, one I can afford.  I am taking care of this body God gave to me.

God loves me unconditionally and he "DOES NOT PUNISH ME."  Things happen because other humans have ego's and many times their pain or fear guides them and they cross my path.  Many times my own human choices punish me but God never does.  He is always in the solution.

Crap from the IRS-God guided me to make the right phone call, go in person to the right person and get all my paper work turned in.  Now I need to followup and check to see if everything has been settled.  That is my footwork and the solution is in God's hands.

No matter what my ego does God is not there. He is in the being part of my human being experience.  He is always there even when I mess up and choose wrong.  He is there to help me clean it up and make amends wherever possible.

God does not punish.  He is not human, he knows the entire picture, he doesn't need to judge.  My job today is to stay in God's will at this very moment and appreciate the people, places and things he has placed in front of me..  Go God

I Will Pray For You

As I pray for others, I see them in the flow of divine love.

As I pray I surround the person, place or thing in divine white light.  This light represents the perfection of Christ.  I surround anything I fear by this white light of pure love from God.

When my loved ones are struggling in some way, my heart goes out to them.  Rather than worry, however, I hold them in prayer.  As I pray for others I feel divine love rising up within me and flowing out from me.  I share the strength of my faith, for I know that we all have instant access to divine strength and wisdom.

In my minds eye, I see my loved ones peacefully and gratefully moving beyond my seeming limitation or obstacle.  As I affirm that God within them is greater than any outer condition, I prayerfully create a sacred space for their success. Through the power of my loving peaceful thoughts, I see them joyfully accepting their highest good.

Pray for one another that you may be healed.  The prayer of the righteous is powerful and effective. James 5:16

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Turn It Over To God

I lean trustingly on God and let Go.

I so forget to let go and give my concerns and worries to God. Once I realize they are causing me to have stinkin' thinkin' I realize I have taken it back.

As I release old thoughts from my mind, I release old emotions from my heart.  To release the old provides room for the new.  A cup cannot be refilled unless it is first emptied.  This day presents me with the opportunity to empty the cup, and to release old thoughts, emotions and conditions that no longer serve me.

Turning it over can be very hard sometimes.  I get caught up in doing the footwork and tyring to control a situation.  It is hard for me to know the difference from time to time what is my part and what is Gods's. I can find out real quick when I find myself butting my head up against a wall.  Gods will is a process and it unfolds easily and effortlessly, only when I get out of the way and let go.

I quietly release the old by saying "I let go and let God."  Such prayer is practical and effective.  It makes it easy to relinquish the things from which I wish to be free.

Any time after this I catch myself taking it back I stop immediately and tell god I am sorry that I took control of it and I am turning it back over to him.

In this new found freedom, my spirit sings. Not only do I find release from the old, but I prepare myself for new thoughts, new emotions and new conditions through which I may express more of the Holy Spirit.

Everything old has passed away; see, everything has become new! 2 Corinthians 5:17

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Pride VS Humility

One of my favorite daily reading books is "Each Day a New Beginning" for women.  Below is one I read today and needed to read.

Pride, we are told, my children, "goeth before a fall" and oh, the pride was there, and so the fall was not far behind.  - Wilhelmina Kemp Johnstone.

Requesting help. Admitting we were wrong. Owning our mistake in either a big or small matter.  Asking for another chance or someones love.  All very difficult to do, and yet necessary if we are to grow.  The difficulty is our pride, the big ego. We think we need to always be right.  If we're wrong, then others may think less of us, look down on us, question our worth.  "Perfectionism" versus "worthlessness."

If we are not perfect (and of course we never are), then we must be worthless. In between these two points on the scale is "being human."  Our emotional growth, as women, is equal to how readily we accept our humanness, how able we are to be wrong.  With humility comes a softness that smooths our every experience, our every relationship.  Pride makes us hard, keeps us hard, keeps others away, and sets us up for the fall.

I will let myself be human today. It will soften my vision of life.